I’m a Taurus. Be definition this means that;
“Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a practical, reliable, patient, (not so patient) affectionate, sensuous, ambitious, and determined character, (this is true) but one which is also prone to laziness, jealousy, inflexibility and stubbornness (Um yep). In terms of anatomy, Taurus is said to rule the vocal chords, tonsils, palate, throat, neck, ears, and lower jaw. In terms of geography Taurus is linked with Switzerland, Sweden, Cyprus, Ireland, Iran, Russia, and Greece. (European-esk this doesn’t surprise me)
Physically, individuals born under the sign of Taurus supposedly tend to have a full and square face, small ears, a rounded and dimpled chin, a short and turned-up nose, large and expressive eyes, glowing and opaque skin, full and well-shaped lips, (lips are tiny but whatever) small and even teeth (Yep), and thick hair. (Thick is an understatement). Generally, there is something distinctly sensual about their appearance, however Taureans are very strong people by character.”
The last sentence lately is getting to me in general. It’s true that I have a strong personality and can pull through in tough times easier than others, but not so much right now. Right now, I have to tell you – I’m a little sick of being the tough strong one.
My whole life, I have been the eldest child so trailblazing the way was a given in family matters. With friends, aways told I am the most loyal and constant of supports which is nice, and most of all the determination I have always had to explore life overseas and travel far from home for lengthy periods of time. Withstanding homesickness, travel debts and dealing with the unknown in general has been a strength of mine. And I have been proud of that. Until now.
Now I would like someone else to be there for me and have to lean on. Namely, my other half currently living in Canada.
I wonder if there is some kind of threshold with pain that we all have, and by zodiac sign mine is just naturally higher in the emotional sense than others. If this is the case, then I have definitely reached my threshold this year and am currently plagued by thoughts of changing careers, countries, hair colour, house, you name it! The grass is always greener effect has taken ahold of me and is completely consuming my thoughts day in, day out this sunny winter.
Then I tell myself this is just my normal process of assimilation when I get home and back into the swing of things after a few months. I start to think about leaving again. I’m like Teflon – I don’t stick.
Except now in my late twenties, I desperately WANT to stick, and be stable, and have a job I love, the house with the white picket fence blah blah blah. Except there's a problem with all that. I don’t think it's in the cards for me. Partially because I still feel an enormous urge to travel and value experience much higher over material things (I am lucky my Canadian feels the same way in that sense), but also partially due to what a psychic told me last year; “You will do things differently to all your friends in life.”
I get what she means. I just don’t know if I like this prediction yet or not. It means more uncertainty, which, for the moment at least, I am completely over. However it also means more than likely – more adventures to come.
Perhaps this feeling is just a phase and all a part of getting used to life back home again.
Perhaps it’s just me missing my boyfriend pure and simple. Perhaps I better get back to pretending I’m my usual strong self, until I figure it all out.